Fattening others

My SO and I are playing a Game. I've been fantasizing about it for a long time, and I can't believe he's agreed to do it! (Dear Penthouse, I can't believe it really happened to me... 😂)

For two months, he is in charge. I am not to check the scale or measurements, and I am not allowed to masturbate. 😳🥺🍆 I am to eat as much as (un?)comfortably possible to gain as much as I can. My job is to fatten up, and be his fat sex toy. We started about Mid-August.

Coincidentally, I have been home from work with an injury and am spending more time on the couch than ever, unable to go to the gym. I'm always/only in boxer briefs and loose shorts. No restrictive clothing.

I have *no idea* how much I've gained so far. I think I feel a bit heavier, I think my belly looks a bit bigger. It's hard to tell and it's driving me crazy!! I am constantly horny, which makes him laugh because even if/when he helps with that, I'm very quickly back to where I started soon after. I'm a mess. 😂🐖

This past weekend some friends invited us out, and I could manage a short outing only. The size L shirt I wore - previously loose - gaped at the lower buttons when I sat down. 😳😳😳🍆🍆🍆

I go back to work end of Sept. I have no idea how big I'll be, or the reactions of others when they see me. I assume I'll need bigger clothes, AND the Game will still go on to Mid-October!! Just typing all of this is making me crazy. OMG and I can't DO anything about it except eat more. Sex/food reinforcement. This could be ...dangerous. Whew~~😳

Losing my mind. Thought I'd share.

🥵 dear Lord this sounds impossible, being dominated into not touching yourself while stuck at home all day??
(I guess you’re still not under as much strain as that poor button-up shirt). Is it more powerful when he does finally help you out?

I'm allowed to ask permission to get off when I'm alone, but the answer is almost always no, as it was this morning. What I do would be a pale comparison and he likes me pent up. I have to find ways to distract myself but it's so hard. 😏

I should add that new (blue striped) shirt pic to my profile. 👍

And when he's in the mood, if I've been good? Sometimes I get tied down, or hands tied together so I can't reach around or over my fat belly. (Makes the "too fat to reach" reality/feeling happen quickly!) Often I'm fed more, edged and teased. Sometimes I get teary eyed from both joy and desperation. I beg, I tremble, I plead. He laughs at me, he uses me as he likes, taking advantage of various fat parts. Sometimes he uses a washable marker to write or draw things on my fupa, which I can't see anymore when lying on my back. Sometimes he uses anal toys. Or, a blindfold.

I've had every muscle in my body want to explode simultaneously. A couple times I thought I was going to pass out. I've had my dick pulse in orgasm for what feels like a whole minute. I've almost lost my voice.

I trust him completely (been together a long time), and this is one of the most amazing things I've ever experienced.

Update: talked to my therapist last night. This behavioural conditioning is one of the best things I've ever done for myself.

My OCD has calmed significantly because I "can't control everything", for starters. All of my previous ED "rules of eating" are not only being broken, I'm swinging HARD in the opposite direction. Add more body confidence, mental and emotional freedom, and of course...

The sexy part. 🔥 Finally allowing these desires to come to fruition in a safe way. I am gaining as much as I can, on purpose, without being careful about fat/muscle balance and without careful food balance. I have never allowed myself reckless abandon. I am loving getting FAT.

After the 2 month Game, I'm probably going to settle in the middle, hopefully, for the sake of my heartburn. 😂😁❤️

All is good. Very, very good.

Happy for you!

Thank you! While he was at work I emailed him this update, and he brought me home an extra Caramilk bar, my favourite. 😁❤️ Now that he knows how significant this is, the Game is so much better.

That’s great! It sounds like you are really enjoying it! It will be interesting to see hot fat you get

I'm halfway there! I went thrift shopping on the weekend and tried on XL shirts for the first time. TWO DIDN'T FIT around my belly and I wasn't even sitting down yet. 😲😲😲 My SO said they might have been "slim fit" as he's XL and they wouldn't have fit him. I brought home 3 XLs that fit and I'm still a bit stunned.

I feel like I just grew out of size SM yesterday. 😂 XL now!

Therapist suggested I NOT weigh at the end of the game and just be happy with how I feel. I'm considering it. I can compare before and after pics... and shirt sizes apparently. 🤣

This sounds like so much fun. I told my boyfriend about it and he wants us to try it.

Why not? 😁🥴

My only physical drawback right now is heartburn. I have managed it through diet since my teens, and well... 🤣

On any given day I cycle through thoughts like:
I'm not used to eating like this.
What if I get used to eating like this?
How big am I going to get?
How big do I *want* to get?
Is two months too much, or not enough? What if I tell him we didn't *really* get started till beginning of Sept and go until Halloween?
I've been home on injury leave, will people notice when I go back? Is it noticeable yet? Do I want it to be?
YES.

🤣🥴🍆